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Free Advise Column with Educator Dr. DeviLisa

April 6, 2010  

SL:
Hi Alchemy
there is a man i truly desire
he is very busy and famous
he left me is phone number
but each time i call he says he is busy
i become like a child when a man does that
and i showed him my weakness by calling back
it was pathetique
i dont know how to control this
then i admited to him that all i wanted was to make love to him
he said tempting
send me naked picks of you and then i will tell you
i personnaly felt it wasnt a good idea
then he seemed to respect me because i didnt
but now no news
and i wonder if i lost my chance
i really want him
but maybe i should just let it go
then again i think
what if i would take beautyfull erotic pics and send him?
if he rejects me how devastating
it might be a healing event to do those pics
and i feel it s degrading also
as im writing this i see how immature i am in my sexuality
how to open up and let the good of this energy manifest
ohlalala what to do
and how to keep my cool with this man
if i ever will have news form him
how to manifest the perfect Shakti evenning with him
or to attract him

Bliss
SL

Dr Lisa Alchemy Devi:
Namaste SL for sharing your process with me….I would like to post this anonymously on our blog wall to show the process we womyn go through. I invite you to keep sharing your thoughts with me …why do you want to make love to him…what do you seek? you are encouraging him to come from a place of exploitation..not honor and reverence…you are tempted to use your sensual essence and beauty in hopes of connecting with a man …yet it is already clear he does not cherish…you are attempting to work out your self-worth and power….

I invite you to return you to a place of power
Alchemy

EnlightenedSexuality.com
you are love respect ..and you attract love and respect and reverence
love alchemy

SL:
mmm thank you
yes you can post this as long as its anonymous

yes when i showed him my weakness that is when he became exploitative..before he was a gentlteman…

you know i realize that it comes form childhood
when i was 4 my dad that i didnt know came to visit me with my sister
he left me a doll and never came back

so when i have no news from a man i freak out i now slow down and i identify that this feeling comes from this event the anguish and panick…and desperate need to be loved..that same summer when i was 4 i also got thrown on a bed by a teenager that put next to my head a picture of a naked lady smiling i thought it was funny and laughed as he was trying to push something up me is mom came downsrairs and saw what he was doing instead of help me she laughed and left me there i started screaming and kicking him and finally got out…my mother is withe and my dad is black
the teenager that did this was black…the women on the porn picture was blond with blue eyes and looked like my mom..i ran from there to my babysiter a portuguese catholic and told her with my 4 year old voice he tried to put something in here
she staired at me
you little slut go back home..

se the paradox in there ohlalalalala
ive never ever have had sex with a black man
since that incident
and the man that wanted me to send him naked pics is black he is the first black man i have ever wanted to make love to
what a paradox that he wanted sexy pics of me..
Thank you

SL:
i would love to meet you and work with you one day.
in Costa rica.
thank you
~~
Can you discuss ways to bring joy back to our marriage?

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